The moments before and after sex are so memorable to me. Before it’s rougher with lots of twists and turns, bites, trembling. It’s a lot faster even at the slowest pace it’s like time passes too quickly but you don’t realize during. The bodily feelings, touches, sensations are more sensitive everything feels more intense. I’ve moaned so many times from just kisses or a lip bite, it just feels so good. Breathing is heavy, hearts are racing, moans, grunts, laughs, conversation. This all leads to the end result, which is perfection but after feels a lot different more sensual and soft. Your both dripping sweat on top of each other breathing. Or holding each other. At this point a sense of relaxation occurs then one of you stares at the other as the other thinks. Or you both stare at one another, this is scary for me and I back down quickly. And then words are spoken so gently and in those moments your guard is dropped and you realize what that was for. What sex is for. Every time is different for me because I see something different from before to now. But my feelings are still intense, I’m still nervous, I still clinch my legs sometimes because I’m scared, I still secretly watch you to see what you look like and pretend I don’t, I still loose my gripping on you from time to time and panic a little, I still gasp a little when you first go in because I feel every part push inside, I still feel things. I remember most times and I imagine new times, lame I know but it’s my way of keeping this whole thing real to me.